So i havent been on in a million and one years
why,
i gave up
drawing
yes
i gave up
joey broke up with my stupid ass, and im not even going to start to explain it, be basicly the boy stopped talking to me for a good two weeks. i did something stupid, horribly stupid, and he stopped talking to me, i know i am saying this so casually but im really just trying to get through with this, and get down to the point. i've been busy with school also, plays, work, you know how it goes,darlings, but i've missed you guys so much :]
i think i'm going to go on here more often. cus really i can never stop drawing, he was my reason for drawing, and ...i wanted to be his favourite artist... xD hahah...but right now he is back in my life as a friend, but..i went so downhill when he broke up with me.
drugs,cutting...all that... i couldnt stand myself for what i did to him. he was my purpose for everything, and... he helped me out through my mother...well if you know me, you know what happened to me, december of 2007 ><; any ways.
i went really downhill; one night where i was about to get high again. he apologized, for things he has said and done to me >-<;

...we started to talk again, like a couple, no fighting, NO FIGHTING, just sitting on phone, like good ol days. haha he says it reminds him of the Notebook [that is...well as "wow-ish" or cliche, as it is, it's one of our movies. the night we watched that movie together, was UH MAZING ;D] hahah, okay but we are chill now, and im working my ass off to get him back, maybe in one of these journals... i'll explain HOW STUPID i am in fucking him over like that >-<; but i want to do something SPECTACULAR that he will be a MILLION percent sure, it's right to be with me...

haha, so again we started to talk again. :3 and... i started to draw again. so i've scanned them, and now he has seen them i want to show them to you ^^